Took James to work. Check.
Stopped by Half Price Books and picked up "Blink" by Malcolm Gladwell and "The Best of Me" by David Sedaris (once of my all-time favorite memoirists). Brain and soul food. Check,
Caught up with my Schlotzsky's buddy over an Original. Real food. Check.
Caught a meeting at Town East. Fellowship. Check.
Currently filling out paperwork to re-apply for my outpatient psychiatry management, then shower, then work.
Productive days always make me feel better, although I do still value stretches of time where I get to practice the delightful art of doing nothing.
Extremism is for the birds. The secret to a joyous life, for me, is in keeping myself balanced, and in finding joy in the sometimes unlikeliest of places. I find a lot of joy in music. The vibration, the rhythm, the stories they tell or the wisdom they impart, the trip down memory lane they evoke, etc.
I played 2 songs en route home just now -
"If I Only Had a Brain" by MC900 FT Jesus, and
"Ice, Ice Baby" by Vanilla Ice
AND they both brought me tears of joy.
The first because I'm soooooo glad I kicked Brian Miller and his complications to the curb long ago (and he has stayed away), but also because it reminds me that fixing my brain, and keeping it working optimally, IS AN ONGOING PROCESS. The second because of my sort of familial connection to good ol' Robbie Van Winkle.
I've also been stacking Jacksons. Not travelling with them, either, in case of robbery. I know bad things happen and that they are part of life, but if I didn't know any better, I'd swear God or the Universe, is looking out for me. Despite all my deepest fears, nothing too bad has happened to me in a very long time. I hope I'm not tempting fate by articulating that in black and white.
I am getting better at weathering the inevitable storms of life, and in finding the silver linings even the darkest clouds can offer, such as shade. I'm learning to be more flexible and to adapt to changing tides.
I still see beauty, positivity and hope everywhere. But people struggling to find it need reminders. Maybe anonymous love-bombing could be an important tool in our arsenal. I do still like the idea of subverting a harmful manipulation tactic and using it for good instead.
1:38 p.m. - 2022-10-04
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